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This is a blog about our life. I started the blog because we lived overseas for my husbands job. That meant it was hard to keep family, back in The States, in the loop about what we were up to. It also became a great way to share my sons birth story with everyone who we wish could have been there. I slowly got busy with life & stopped blogging. Here we are in 2014, living back in the good ol' USA & as we make life changes I find this to be a great way to share my thoughts and save them for my son to look back on someday.

Friday, July 11, 2014

Big Changes

First day of daycare! 
Ready to go! 

7am. Laying in bed, full face of makeup & hair done. This is the second day of getting used to waking up early for new job. Yup, I got a real job. A grown up, mon-Fri job. I dont start til Monday but I used yesterday & today to get us adjusted/ready. Us? Well getting a job also means D.A.Y.C.A.R.E for my baby! Yikes! I knew it'd be hard to let him go but it's stomach upsetting hard. Yesterday wasn't so bad. He is going to an in-home daycare ran by someone we know & for whom I have babysat for. So it wasn't as hard leaving him there as it would've been in a real daycare. I can't express how much I wish someone in the family would've been able to come watch him but no such luck. 

Why work? So I've been asked by a few people why am I going to work if I have such a hard time leaving him & financially we are okay without Income from me. It's easy. He won't be home with me forever. Next fall he would go to pre-k and then it's off to kinder. If I waited until then it would be 8yrs out of the workforce for me and 3yrs since I finished my degree basically making it irrelevant.  I have always wanted to work. Actually growing up my dream was to be a working mom with a stay at home husband. <---Crazy right? Having been a SAHM for 3 years has been AMAZING! I wouldn't do anything different well maybe I'd wait another year to apply for jobs lol 

Money, money, money. I have a good amount of student loan debt. Honestly, if I didn't I probably wouldn't care if my degree went to waste but I absolutely hate feeling like we spent all the money for a piece of paper on the wall.  Granted my new position isn't in my degree field, I do think I was chosen because I have a degree. Paying for daycare...HOLY COW! It's expensive. I can't say for certain that this job is permanent because it may end up just not being worth it when we consider daycare costs. It's already $100/month more than we had wanted to pay. But even at the rate we want to pay it'll be a good chunk of my check. So once we really see what I'll be bringing home we will decide if its worth or if I'm just working to pay for daycare & have a couple dollars leftover <---not worth it!  

Bubble guts. Leaving my baby all day is super rough on me. I feel like today is even harder than yesterday FOR ME. Yesterday was pretty easy for him. He said bye, love you & didn't mind that I left. Wahhhh :( that does make it easier for me though. The last time we attempted daycare a year ago he cried, I cried & he never went back LOL yup I'm that mom.

So here we go...Day be cont. 

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